The past six months have been very "trying" for me to say the least. My sponsor told me this week that he didn't think I would have lasted this long, living and loving a practicing alcoholic. The key for me is to never take anything an alcoholic says personally. It's hard to do, and sometimes I lose it and let the alcoholic have it verbally. I am doing that less, and less with each passing day. There is this line from the Big Book that catches my eye...
"Try not to condem your alcoholic husband no matter what he does or says. He is just another sick, unreasonable person. Treat him, when you can, as though he had pneumonia. When he angers you, remember that he is very ill." page 108, Alcoholics Anonymous Basic Text.
As long as an alcoholic is breathing, I will never give up hope and say something wonderful like "call me when you are well then I can help." I will never give up on my alcoholic, whether they are still sick, or in the process of getting weller. They are in the process of getting weller, and for that I am grateful, and praying often. It's good for all of us to take time to pray for all alcoholics who are suffering. To me, it is my duty, and responsibility. I must do it freely without malice nor complaint...May you all roll with the punches that life throws. It is all worth it in the long run. We must never lose sight of what could be...
Seattle won, 4 to 3. I like Oakland though. I had the best peanut butter waffles there once. After the long drive home, I sat on the couch and put my feet up. I looked over at the bookcase and wondered why on Earth there were so many self-help books there. I never read them. I said shiat, the only books I need are the Big Book of AA and the 12x12. Those two books are as good as it gets. I'll put those others in the yard sale this weekend...
