Dear Bla Blabla,
I believe that as we grow, in the right way, we have moments of clarity. Whether we drink or take a pill or not. We can sometimes see through that little window and catch a glimpse of our life. It's hard when people lie to us. What is worse is to discover the reality of living in the lie. Our fears makes it easier to stay in a life situation that is destructive to our emotional security. Financial security is good, but it does nothing for the soul. It's a self-defeating learned behavior that gets in the way of true intimacy and the truth.
We suffer from a "feel" disease. Fear of being alone may keep us in a soul sickness. It's just a bitch to grow through it. We have to get selfish and deal with the people places and things that we see are getting in the way of a quality recovery. We are the only ones who can start the ball rolling. It starts with us, and the real friends we have. We have plenty of real friends, we just may not know it yet. Maybe we haven't met them all. They are there.
Have a good day. I need some sunshine. These gray days are a real bummer for me.
Sorry about the lecture. I guess I haven't done that for a while...
I feel a touch of gratitude today. Thank God for another 24!