Alcoholic Brain

Hi and thanks for visiting. I have an alcoholic brain. I will try to post comments daily about how this alcoholic brain functions.
Sober date: October 4th, 2005.

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Location: West Coast, United States

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Snow and screwie moods...

There is snow here. I just got home from cleaning the Alano Club and the roads are real slick. It's snowing hard here. Weatherman says 4 to 8 inches of snow tonight, on top of the 4 inches or so of snow already here. I'm going to two to three AA meetings a week. I am still working the Fourth Step. I had a 400mg injection of Testosterone Monday. I have been seeing a pattern for the past six months or so, that with about five days to go before my next injection is due, I nose dive into depression. I talked to the nurse, and we will try the injections at 200mg every two weeks. Maybe that will keep me on more of an even keel. Going to the Goodwill Mall tomorrow to check out the sales.  I'd like to find a book on meditation. They have a huge used book section. I seem to be much more accepting of things today...I have gained a new respect for people on Hormone replacement therapy. What a trip that can be!!

"Love and tolerance of others is our code." page 84 Alcoholics Anonymous

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Happy Thanksgiving...

I haven't blogged for a while. On the 18th, I went to a district Gratitude Dinner, and about 200 people came from all over the area. We had an Alanon and an AA speaker. They were a married couple and it was all very interesting and such an inspiration. Needless to say, the feast was huge. I'm grateful I went.

I think I will go to the Alano Club today, as this time of year can be a bummer for some, so the Club is having Thanksgiving dinner. That's such a cool thing. Some of us have no families left, or maybe they don't want to see any of us, who knows. But as alcoholics, I think we need each other, regardless. So, I'll go there and hang for a while, then go visit my sister and the rest of my family. I wish you all a happy day.
 I am grateful for today, because I'm sober.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Memorial Potluck...

A friend of mine, and a friend to many, passed away less than a week ago. I had known him since 2002 I think. He was a member of the local Alano Club. He was a very nice man. But he just couldn't stay sober. He would get a week or two sober then start drinking again. He really didn't want to stop and suffered from severe depression. The thing I liked about him, is that he would not hide the fact he was drinking from anyone. During the past several months, he was more into maintenance drinking, so he could still visit the Alano Club. All, and probably the only friends he had were Club members. He had moved here following a divorce from another state, and lived in his small truck for a very long time. Over the past two or three month, he began to swell up. His liver became quite large, and his body was retaining fluids, and his legs were showing dependent edema. Over two weeks ago I was thinking that I handn't seen him for a few days. Some of the people from the Alano Club were watching him. They told me his legs had become so swollen, that he could not bend them enough to get him into a car or truck. Tonight at the Alano Club, we are having a dinner potluck to remember him. Most alcoholics would have been hiding in the closet, not wanting anyone to outright know that they were drinking. This man gave me a lesson in denial in action.

Those who cannot find sobriety here on Earth, will find it in Heaven. I am grateful too have known him...

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Two Horses

Just up the road from my home is a field, with two horses in it. From a distance, each looks like every other horse. But if you stop your car, or are walking by, you will notice something quite amazing. Looking into the eyes of one horse will disclose that he is blind. His owner has chosen not to have him put down, but has made a good home for him. This alone is amazing.

If nearby and listening, you will hear the sound of a bell. Looking around for the source of the sound, you will see that it comes from the smaller horse in the field. Attached to her halter is a small bell. It lets her blind friend know where she is, so he can follow her.

As you stand & watch these two friends, you'll see how she is always checking on him, & that he will listen for her bell & then slowly walk to where she is, trusting that she will not lead him astray. When she returns to the shelter of the barn each evening, she stops occasionally & looks back, making sure her friend isn't too far behind to hear the bell.

Like the owners of these two horses, God does not throw us away just because we are not perfect or because we have problems or challenges. He watches over us and even brings others into our lives to help us when we are in need Sometimes we are the blind horse being guided by the little ringing bell of those who God places in our lives Other times we are the guide horse, helping others see.

Good friends are like this. You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.

Please listen for my bell and I'll listen for yours!

Higher Power stuff?...Yup.

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Monday, November 06, 2006


I can't believe it has been so long since I have blogged! No, I didn't fall off of the planet or anything, but I have been busy. I mess with computers so much I get burnt out on them sometimes! Working on them can really suck sometimes!  It seems that we haven't had much of a Fall season here.  It has been cold here, and we have had snow, but it didn't stick.  One of the volunteers at the local Alano Club has been ill, and I have been covering for him plus volunteering my usual Friday mornings, and I do the janitorial work there. I have been busy helping others too. I'm trying to get a "Joe and Charlie" 12 Step seminar going, so I'll keep you informed. I am so grateful to be sober today. The pic is of my little town. Thanks for stopping by!!

I am working on conscious contact...

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