Well dAAve, I am still here. I backed off the blog thing for a while, thinking I was burnt out. The truth is I have been in a deep depression. I was first treated for depression at age 15. It is something that has haunted me my whole life. Sometimes I'm ok, sometimes I seem to nose dive. What I have learned is that I don't have to drink over it today. But it does have some negative ramifications, like snapping and being a jerk to those I love and care deeply about. I am slow to do Step 10. My Alcoholic Brain still tells me things that are not true. Sometimes it appears I believe it's lies, causing hurt to others...Then they react.
Thanks for the comment dAAve. It might just make me do the things that helped me a lot in recovery and that is posting more often on my blog.
I am still sober and today is another day. It looks like I have an AA birthday next month. If I can do God's will, maybe I will have that birthday.