STOP THE MADNESS VIDEO

Alcohol abuse equals small brain...

This is an x-ray of a male who abused beer for decades. Cerebral atrophy is remarkable. Common condition in male beer abusers. D'OH!

A Groaner...

A friend of mine is an alcoholic, but has never tried to stop drinking. They're one of those who make it appear to the outside world that there is no drinking problem. They still have a family, marriage, money in the bank, no DUI's, and a job. It's funny how people define alcoholism. I know another man that will never drink before noon. Only alcoholics drink before noon right? So he shakes to pieces until just after noon so he can have a drink. His whole disease revolves around his wristwatch.

Today is just an "ok" day. It's funny what I can do to aggravate my recent surgery. Saturday I did a lot of fun and beautiful things, and I was fine. Today, Monday, I vacuumed and now I hurt like hell. This is all very confusing to me. I 'spose all I have to do though, is not drink, no mater what. That's all I have to do. Oh, and pay taxes and die.

WATER ... IT HAS BEEN SCIENTIFICALLY PROVEN THAT IF WE DRINK 1
LITER OF WATER EACH DAY, AT THE END OF THE YEAR WE WOULD HAVE
ABSORBED MORE THAN 1 KILO OF ESCHERICHIA COLI BACTERIA FOUND IN
FECES, IN OTHER WORDS, WE ARE CONSUMING 1 KILO OF SHIT.

HOWEVER, WE DO NOT RUN THAT RISK WHEN DRINKING RUM, WHISKEY,
BEER OR OTHER LIQUORS BECAUSE ALCOHOL HAS TO GO THROUGH A
DISTILLATION PROCESS OF BOILING, FILTERING AND FERMENTING.

IT IS MY DUTY TO COMMUNICATE TO ALL OF YOU PEOPLE WHO ARE
DRINKING WATER, TO STOP DOING SO; IT HAS BEEN SCIENTIFICALLY
PROVEN THAT IT IS UNHEALTHY AND BAD FOR YOU.

WATER = SHIT, ALCOHOL = HEALTH
FREE YOURSELF OF SHIT: DRINK ALCOHOL!!!
IT IS BETTER TO DRINK ALCOHOL AND TALK SHIT
THAN TO DRINK WATER AND BE FULL OF SHIT

Almost outta my mind!

One of those alcoholic (Whining sound here) I can't sleep nights. So when I can't sleep I try to do something with my mind, and my hands. Get your mind outta the gutter! So, I thought I'd build a web page. I have some web space over at GOOGLE, so I wrote a little cutie of a slideshow with JavaScript and an mp3. Took me about 5 hours to write it...I got it ready and went to upload it to my site, and guess what??!! GOOGLE does not support JavaScript!!?? They have these WYSIWYG HTML editors that any moron can use to make themselves a cute little web page, but one cannot edit or code their own HTML. Now isn't that sweet. I got a little pissed-off. So, I implemented the very short version of the Serenity prayer. It works. So, now I'll try another web host...Maybe Bravenet. I got a surprise yesterday. A young man I'm sponsoring knocked at my door. He spent the last three months in inpatient treatment, but he left early. He was working 40 hours a week while there and received little to zero counseling. From the sound of things, it wasn't so hot. So we have to get him a job, and a place to live. I think he has a place to go to Thursday. Maybe we will hit a meeting tonight. That would be a good thing. My paid friend (therapist) says I'm near cured of psychcological problems so she discharged me, and left the door open for me in case I have a "crisis." She's cool. I'm sure I'll do therapy again. I enjoy finding out about me, in a safe place where I know I won't get judged or any of that other nonsense. I seem to be doing well with the back injury problems so life is putting a smile on my face and so is a sweet lady friend of mine. It's a parttime/fulltime thing. A one day at a time deal...Way cool...Sober another 24, so you all can go back to sleep now...buh bye!!

Post Op...

Well, the surgery went off without a hitch. I am quite sore however. I was in the hospital overnight, but the doctor left it up to me if I wanted to stay another night, but I was already dressed. This is my third back surgery, so I know the drill. But this one was the most invasive and brutal. I have bruises all over my lower back. I am going to get outside tomorrow for the first time since being laid-up here at home. Going to see my paid friend tomorrow, as well as my sponsor. I haven't had any thoughts of drinking. Just thoughts of being normal...

Don't sweat the small stuff...

I like that saying. It works...I see it as a short version of the Serenity Prayer. Tomorrow morning, I have major back surgery. I am a little nervous, but that's about all. I'm not afraid about the surgery. That would be kinda silly because I'll be unconscious!! The thing I fret the most is waking up in recovery with a catheter inserted into the "hangy down pink part."

Enough of that. Anyway I don't feel the need to drink today, and continue to try and find resentments. My paid friend told me to look for the "Doritos" in my life...LOL...I like Cooler Ranch. Something that I have a passion for, like a hobby, or being a freedom fighter. I have found I don't have to fight to stay sober. Not picking up a bottle today isn't an option for me. But I do have to remind myself that my brain is programmed to say..."One won't hurt."

So I think that's awesome. Something else, today I have people who love and care about me. I have had that when drinking too, but blinded by alcohol, I just couldn't see it, no matter how hard I tried to push people away. I want to embrace my life, and all who are important to me...Sober today. Still somewhat insane...Just not as much maybe.