October 4th, AA Birthday...

I have had little to do with this, but on the 4th of this month I had 4 years without the need to drink. dAAve hit it when he reminded me that I just had to be "willing" to do some of the suggestions that AA has to offer. I have been doing that, and it is working for now, day by day. That's all I have, a day at a time. Year three was rough. My father and sister both passed away, and I miss them. I often have nightmares about my sisters death, as I saw her die. I hope these troublesome things pass. I know they will, as long as I remain willing to work toward staying sober and trusting my Higher Power at all times. I wish things were different at home, but I'm just giving into selfish desires concerning that. I went to two meetings in a row this week. Both Tuesday and Wednesday nights. I don't do that often. I enjoyed both meetings. I enjoy any AA meeting I attend. I didn't like AA for a long time. That has changed. For that I am grateful.

I pray you are all doing well. I am much less depressed. AB.