Alcoholic Brain
Hi and thanks for visiting. I have an alcoholic brain. I will try to post comments daily about how this alcoholic brain functions.
Sober date: October 4th, 2004.
Friday, March 04, 2022
Saturday, November 10, 2018
Pain, soreness and more to do...
Monday, October 22, 2018
I Might Go Back...
I like to start off lite hearted, before getting into the red meat of the post. "So anyway this stud horse walks into a bar and orders a glass of beer while picking out a stool at the plank. The bar keep brings a cold beer to the horse and says, hey Stallion, why the long face? The horse mutters something having to do with a mare, saying she ain't what she used be." Obviously a domestic issue at the barn.
"Did you hear about the frog that was parked illegally? It got toad."
Ok, since 1992, I have always lived with roommates. The preface being two people renting is more cost effective than living alone, especially with my meager income. I am on Social Security Disability Insurance. I'm dirt poor. It's pathetic. Fourteen months ago, I went to HUD Housing and filled out some applications for housing. I was warned by the staff that the waiting list is about a one year wait. I finally got a call from HUD, and was told I made it to the top of the list, and the most desirable apartment, at the best housing apartment building, was being offered to little AB. I pounced on it. I started paying rent on 09/27/2018. By October 21st, I believe I have all my stuff moved into my new Crib. I had to move away from an environment that was not conducive to recovery from Alcohol misise, abuse and addiction to it. With all the illegal drugs being used, and sold there, I was reduced to living in my bedroom. I don't know how I stayed alcohol free. People were coming and going at all hours of the night. They were smoking a very powerful central nervous system stimulant. As well as selling it. I need to add that my room mate had been asking me to leave for a long time. I never really did anything to help her and she reached out to what she new out if fear of being evicted.
I haven't been to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous in over three years. I see myself in Gorski's relapse dynamic. In AA members refer to this condition as a dry drunk. I have to get back on track and get my ass to some meetings of AA to interrupt what could spell disaster for me. I pray to see some of you in the area, whilst I attend some meetings. God willing...
Labels: 12 Steps, AA, depression, isolation..., PTSD
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Merry Christmas
Another sober Christmas. Since my last post a lot has happened. For about the past six months I have been looking for a place to rent. I have spent the last eight years with a woman I dearly love. The issue is we just don't get along very well much of the time. We agreed back then, that it be best if I would hang my hat in my own crib. I'm on a fixed income so it's ideal for me to split the cost of a rental with a roommate. An old roommate of mine from years ago was also looking. We rented a house about 40 miles from where I live now. We took it over December 3rd, and I'm still moving stuff. I should be done by the first of January. I'm really slow and can't lift very much so I just do what my body allows. My body tells me when enough is enough. I have had some help which is very good. I could use more help but pride keeps me from asking. Sounds like an alcoholic.
On October 4th I finally reached my 8 year AA birthday. I'm still very young...
Thursday, August 01, 2013
Good to see you...
Almost three years since my last post! I must be resting on my laurals. Hope I spelled that right. No, I didn't relapse. Still not drinking, just neglecting my blog. I will be fixing some broken links and uploading some more graphics. I still attend one AA meeting a week and see my sponsor/AA friend weekly as well. Since my last post, I think I've had two more back surgeries. Those are fun. I have to deal with the chronic pain thing, and the stigma that goes with it. My depression issue is alive and well. These things are much easier to manage without alcohol however. Anyway, as always, I'm starting my day with two hours of quiet time and a pot of coffee. This isn't easy to do using a smartphone! I will use my computer most of the time. That keyboard is larger than my phone. This one finger typing is sort of a bitch. Ok, got to take on the day! Bye for now, AB.
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Passion and balance...
Last week a friend in AA and I went Walleye fishing and caught our limits over the three days we spent in his cabin on the lake. This is a 10 pound fish. The smallest fish I saw caught was 5.5 pounds. Walleye is great eating. It was cold, but we had a blast! This would have never happened if I were drinking. I am grateful to be sober and working on balance in my life. Fishing is something I'm passionate about! Hope you all have a sober December! Love, AB.