Any day now...
I meet with my sponsor every Tuesday at 1:30pm, usually for an hour and a half. We meet at this little Drive Thru place where you can go in and have eats and sodas, coffee etc...We do the double or triple shot esspresso latte thing. I can't remember what they are called. But they are potent. Anyway the first thing I said when I sat down was "At some of these we balked." I was talking about my seemingly inability to finish my Fourth Step. Appears when I get to it, I notice that the lawn needs to be vacuumed. I had to ask for help and examples about what this thing is about, and I got some good answers. I found a good Fourth Step guide on the internet. My printer is down for the count, so he is going to print it out for me. I hope to have the thing Wednesday. I already had about 70 plus pages of confusion completed, but it just isn't fearless and thorough enough. I concluded I was one on those that need step by step instruction on how to properly do that step. I'm glad I had the balls to ask for help. Many of us skip this step. I know me, and if I don't do these things, I will eventually drink again. My disease will back up and tow me right off. After much study and experience, I have concluded that I am an alcoholic of the hopeless variety. Without these Steps to bring about a spiritual awakening, alcoholism will kick my ass. It would only be a matter of time...
Today I am grateful for:
Have a sober Wednesday!! AB loves you!
Today I am grateful for:
- Having the obsession of alcohol removed
- Having the willingness to change
- Having the courage to ask for help
- An awesome sponsor who knows me better than me
- My meetings and friends in the fellowship of AA
- Hangin' with the sober boyz at the Club
- My awesome and loving family
- The ability to pray
- The ability to have faith and hope
- That I have a place to live, food to eat, and wheels
- The ability to think things through
- To all my blogger friends in recovery that help me so much!
- To be able to see, hear, smell and touch
- The ability to love
- The ability to place principles before personalities
Have a sober Wednesday!! AB loves you!
posted by Alcoholic Brain | 12:00 AM
9 Comments:
Awesome, awesome gratitude list.
Right on, fearless, with a metal pen filled with black in k ready to kick some butt!
That is one healthy list!
Thanks for sharing:)
great list
70 plus pages? Oh my! That is going to be one long, healthy fifth.
This is what it's all about.
Honesty and perseverance.
I don't think a 4th step is all about quantity. It's about including those things and people that have affected your life in one way or another. My 4th step was only 3 pages and it was all I needed. But we're all different.
Good post.
wow ~ 70 pages is quite alot. We all have a fourth and fifth step story. This is your path. Only you can walk it. Just keep on walkin!
Yeah, I'm so scared of getting to #4 and #9 that I'm dragging my feet on Step 1, and all I have to do is list 300 things I'm powerless over and do some readings.
I love your gratitude list, especially "The ability to love." That is beautiful, my friend!
Hope you are having a nice weekend.
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