I recall the hopelessness I felt when I was drinking. It stays fresh in my mind. To me, that's very important. Remembering the neighborhood is critical in my process of staying sober and growing. When drinking, I would often see myself as being in a row boat in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. I would say between drinks, "My boat is so small, and the sea is too big." What AA has done for me is give me a much bigger boat. A boat that is safer for me. The boat in the picture taken the 23rd of last month, is a meeting, and my sponsor, and my friends in the fellowship of AA. The life ring is an extra meeting and helping others. I thank my Creator for blessing me with a bigger, more sea worthy craft. Today I have much to be grateful for:
- Alcoholics Anonymous.
- 12 Steps that help me grow.
- A sponsor I love.
- A sponsor that pisses me off sometimes.
- The belief that my Creator does indeed love me.
- My alcoholic, who has restored my belief in love and commitment, no matter what.
- My alcoholic, who has taught me that it is more important to give, instead of getting.
- My family who has always loved me, despite what shame I have brought to them.
- Skilled surgeons who continue to do repairs on me.
- Responsibilities, and bills to pay.
- A nice place to live.
- Food and water.
- A big Goldfish, a dog and cats to care for.
- Being alive, when I should be dead.
God bless you all. Have a fine weekend. Love, AB.