Since last February I have been head over heels in love. She is my room mate, best friend and lover. Today I still have the spark that I felt ever since I first saw her. I cannot imagine life without her at all. She is my family now. Maybe not in the legal sense. She has said yes to marriage several times to me. Maybe someday we will do that. She will be leaving soon on an adventure of 45 days or so, on the other side of the state. I will miss her dearly, and deeply. I have never felt such a deep and powerful love like this for anyone in my whole life. I know I will love her forever. This is something that if I still lived in the world of "it's all about me,"
would not be possible at all. The bondage of self has been lifted.
I thank God that he/she has brought us together.
On October 26th
, tomorrow, I turn 54 years old. It's way past time for me to put away selfish childish things and devote myself fully to another human being, for better or for worse.
I don't mean to get all mushy and pathetically romantic here, but it's what I'm feeling right now.
And that's not so bad.
I'm a real alcoholic my name is AB. I haven't found it necessary to pick up a drink today, and for that I am eternally grateful.