Storms...

Thunder and lightening tonight. Nothing like watching a lightening storm. I wonder what it's like to be hit by lightening. I wonder if it is like putting a massive dose of meth in your arm. I know what that's like. Sort of taking a left hook from a heavyweight. Out of sorts for a while. I was feeling out of sorts when I realized what happens when your car is impounded. Besides the initial towing fee, they charge thirty-six dollars a day impound fee. They charge you this until they auction it off, then they bill you for the balance remaining. I had no choice but to make arrangements to get my car out, so I did. I could have ended up owing thousands, and if I couldn't pay the balance, I would never be able to renew my drivers license. I could actually feel a wave of nausea overcome me. But I feel better. Better to take charge once in a while rather than being a victim huh? I think so. I can be very good with the self pity thing. Self pity gets me one thing...Drunk/loaded. Going to have a surprise party for a guy that does a lot of good for people in this town. That will be fun. Three days without pain meds. I'm trying the John Wayne thing. Without the whisky.


I have a friend that I help in recovery. When all else fails, work with another alcoholic. Sound wisdom. Thank God for another 24, you are all in my prayers. What a rambling mess this was huh? Bed time.