I feel yah dog...

Sometimes I think AA/NA folks are the only people I can relate to these days. Like a lot of alcoholics and addicts, I have had several different types of employment. I did work in the addiction field as a Therapist II and a CCDC III, and the Ambulance business, as well as a horse trainer. So it's cool trying to figure out what I wanna be when I grow up. I did all of these jobs very well. They say that alcoholics can actually fall upstairs. That is so true. I remember on the ambulance one time, and a co-worker was complaining about another crew member. All I said was, "Sounds like fourth step stuff to me." He had a tilt to his head that reminded me of a very curious dog. Like, "that's interesting, but what is it."


I am grateful for the principles that are laid out for people like me. I was an alcoholic before my first drink. All the green-eyed people in my family are alcoholic. The blue-eyed ones are not. I will never forget that first drink. It made things right. I felt like all the planets were aligned, and I just fit in the human race real smooth like everybody else. Alcohol was once my best friend. That best friend killed me, but I'm in a different space. I realize my powerlessness over it, and what a key to freedom. I respect the power of alcohol, and I leave it alone. I have a group of friends who don't hang out with me, just to see if they can manipulate me outta anything. Today I have friends who care. They stop by, have coffee and shoot the breeze, wanting nothing else but friendly conversation. Imagine that!


I thought by now I would feel a withdrawal syndrome from the pain medication, but nothing yet. I feel fine, except for the nagging pulling pain in my right shoulder, and I see a surgeon tomorrow. Sunday I will be working at the local Alano Club. That's fun. Free coffee and conversation with other drunks. I can't think of a better night. Well, I can, but I won't go there!LOL Thanks for another 24.