I am happy everybody is sober in the house today. Still, I haven't started my second fourth step yet. I talked to my sponsor today about the brain following a relapse. I have relapsed many times over the years. A friend recently relapsed and is facing a possible divorce. This person's binges are getting closer together and their cognitive thought process shows increased deficits. It's sad, but at least they are not drinking today. I can relate to all of this, having relapsed so much since the early 90's. Things are never the same, and I will expect changing tides day by day. My roommate and I are getting along well. I think life will be good as long as I don't drink. I'm having episodes of intense loneliness, having lost my dad and only sister this past year. I miss my family. I have found that I'm just not doing the simple things in the program of recovery that makes recovery better. Like meditation and prayer. Gotta start doing more of the simple things to take some of my stress away. Thanks for stopping by and thanks for not smoking while here. AB.