Bla............

It's funny how I can post about everything nice, and the next day have a raging case of the "fuck it's." I haven't touched my program all day and I sure can tell. I know I will feel better after I write this post, I always do, but right now, my attitude stinks. I can't put my finger on anything causing this, other than being complacent about recovery today. So what am I thinkin'? If I take a day off from working my program, then my disease takes time away too??!! Oh hail no. While I do nothing, I get pounded by my brain. I went from action to inaction in 24 hours. Today has just been another reminder that this is a one day at a time thing. Each day is a new beginning. Sometimes being an alcoholic really sucks. Today has just been one of those. I suppose I will have days like these. I just hope I don't have too many of them. On reflection, I didn't do what I do every morning, and that's begin with peace and quiet. I didn't pray nor meditate. I'll do that now before I go to bed. There, I feel better already. I'll climb down off my cross now. See you all Tuesday...I am grateful that I didn't feel the need to drink though. That's for certain.